~I am still me~: November 2015

Monday, November 23, 2015

Mistakes Say no regret again!

Ah! Yes. There are many regrets in one's life, same goes to me. I regret I didn't make clear of our relationship, didn't appreciate him, didn't talk properly last time. Okay! So, I decided to get it back though I'm not sure whether it works.

I guess he would never ever know. Since the very first time we knew each other, he had given me the special feelings that is different from others. Felt touched that he could watch a football match as I'm a die hard fans. Have the initiative to share each and everything with him. Until I was in SG, the feelings of safe while texting with him in another country. Also, he would never know that how well I can remember everything about him:his birthday, his test, his event etc as long as he told me. Never know how nervous during the first time he came to my house and fetched me out. Never know how I can be affected by his message for the whole day. Even can purposely go for an event just because I aware that he is going too! For me, all these I would never expect him to know because I love him, Sam Goo. He would never know how deep I fall.

Though being rejected directly or indirectly and he might have girlfriend already, I would never give up until 9December because its his school event, which last year I had put aeroplane. This year I wanted to compensate for what I have done wrong. After 9December, I will slowly walk away from his life. Not because I don't love anymore but to give blessings is also a kind of love. I know love from the wrong person only make nuisance.

Sam, I will leave soon, very soon just in 2 weeks time. Thank you for teaching me how to love, I started to learn after the 29thaugust when I was stucked in the bersih train and thought of you when I was hardly breath. I feel happy in this few months though you don't reply me on everything. Don't worry I will be fine, pretty fine :) #eefangistough #walkawayisakindoflove2