I'm not sure this is love.

We'd never talk until my birthday. Then I knew he is working nearby my campus and I took his car sometimes. Honestly, I felt so so so happy like I never had before when I have the chance to sit in his car. Yet, soon I realised his lifestyle and everything are so different from mine. In my opinion, I never thought this would be an reason for me to affect my stands but for him definitely yes. Right from the start, I have already knew the outcome yet I still volunteer to go deep into it. While the whole world including my mum is saying I'm crazy and I admit it.

This is what I told my best friend:"Just let me have a nice dream until May and I'll wake up, by the time I can reduce my weight as I'll be very very sad and emo." She know this serves me right but she said she will cry together with me XD

Despite he doesn't love me or anything, I still willing to do all those things because I aware that love is blind and it always does. One of my friend questioned me why I can't persist so long. My answer is "because its him." I said "maybe someday I'll let go when he's having his girl, and there are 2 possibilities, one his girl is me, or my boy is not him. " Which mean the chance for him would last til the day he found his girl. #eefangiscrazy