Its complicated~~

Due to i am too free in this month,i re-watched "The Mysteries of Love " again....When i heard what Raymond said in the end of the drama,i couldn't control my tears from rolling down my cheek.....Because you did say the same thing to me after you left me that year....I used to be stubborn and not to listen to other people....but I actually waited for you to come back....Eventually,you lied!!!!How could you do that?! There were so many things you hadn't done...how could you  left me forever just like that??!!! I hate you!!! Lied to me again again and again!!!!!!!!!!You said you will prove to me that you are the best guy that i ever met...yea..you have proven ....you won...you won everything ....including  <3....

Lonely night

I hate 'night'...because since he left my world,sleep had became a job for me to do everynight...i have to think of a way for me to fall sleep >< ...what happened to me????I'm not sure...I really regret to meet the person on the last day of 2011!!!!!!!!!!Really!!!!!!!! Now,my heart,my mind and my soul are totally affected by every single word that i heard that day!!!! How good if he is still here to taccompany at this moment...how good if he is here to solve my problem><....Now i could understand Avril Lavigne's feelings:"Damn...damn...damn...what i'd do to have you here here here..i wish you were here....damn..damn...damn..what i'd do to have you near..near ..near..i wish you were here" It is so hard to unlink him in my life as everything in my life is related to him.....I NEED BARBITURRATES NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

心痛～～

想念是会呼吸的痛，它留在我身上所有角落～～曾经我以为，我已经放下以前的一切～～但是，仿佛一切让我康复的努力都是白费的！！一个错误的开始，让我们的痛苦着。。打开facebook，看见“情人节” 这三个字。。感觉好陌生，因为从2010 年的那个冬天的那个夜晚，一通痛彻心扉的电话让我的世界变得黑暗～～情人节在我的字典里已被删掉了！！ 那个夜晚结束了我们之间缘分～～原本属于我的幸福变成历史~~那样的悲伤从2010一直延续到2011，我曾经恨过，甚至自责～～责问自己到底为什么会让这一切发生。。原来，我还深深地爱着他。。我花了一年的时间，好不容易才让我的心平复下来，让淌血的伤口止血慢慢的结疤～～2011的冬天，我渐渐的让伤口复原，慢慢的让自己的视线转移到另一个人的身上～～但是。。。就在2011的最后一天，为什么要来为我重温历史？！看到现在的情况，只会让我更加怪我自己。。在所有的一切已成为定局的时候才来告诉我你有多么的后悔仿佛起不了任何作用～～反而好像在我结疤的伤口用刀子轻轻地划一道，让血慢慢地流出～～我痛苦着。。几乎又过着那些痛苦的日子。。到底我何时才能结束这一切？？对于过去，我非常非常非常的后悔！！但又怎么样？！！一切以回不来了！！！回不来了。。。回不来了。。。

A busy weekend..

Yesterday, I went shopping at mid valley megamall...I think because it was weekend so there was people mountain people sea...i was happy because my aunt bought me shirt for chinese new year =) After that,I went pasar malam with my brother...never thought that the sushi at pasar malam sold out so fast...by the time i reached only left 4 >< 

the cappuccino @ delicious =)

Today woke up quite late as i slept very late last night ...Then i cooked spaghetti as my breakfast+lunch ..I think it can be my tea also as I cooked for almost an hour >< ...Oh no!! why so slow?!?! and the cooking time made me forget about the korea open =( when i turned to the channel,it was playing lin dan vs lee chong wei...everyone was surprised that lee chong wei won...after the men's single match,the tv showed the previous result...oh no!!! Men's double had over??? I thought it should be the last match as the opens recently arranged men's double as the first match....How sad...Lee Yong Dae and jung jae sung lost to China's Fu hai Feng and Cai yun..

       

jung jae sung and lee yong dae =)

cai yun and fu hai feng

After the match I went to to jusco and lepak lepak there...of course i wouldn't forget chatime...=) and I went fun and cheer ...both places also people mountain people sea...as fun and cheer is selling all the chinese new year decorations stuff...and I saw a lot of 'dragons' inside....

just to bored ...played with phone's camera ..XP

fun and cheer...so 'ang'

I was happy today as manchester united won manchester city in FA cup...3-2 ....2 goals by wayne rooney and 1 by welbeckthe cute guy ^^

wayne rooney

welbeck =)

HUH????

YES!!! Today school reopen and it is non of my business anymore...hehe..XP ..but i waken up at 6.30am =( even i am working at 8am...how sad..haiz...Well,after I reached there, I am starting to handle a class alone...Now only i know its quite tiring to take care of children actually...but some of them are cute and funny =)
Today during lunch time,the worker there kept on looking at me as if she got some question marks in her eyes...Eventually,she asked me a question...what a funny question: So,are you married?? Or Single?? I was totally shocked..After i paused for a while,I answered her:I'm single...Then i walked away and monolog: Am I look like a married people?? Of course NOT la!!
Nowadays, most of the parents are worrying about their children...This can be shown just now when I was ordered to gather the students at the school gate after they come out from the school....I walked from my work place to the school and all the parents were waiting impatiently there...When the parents were allowed to go in the school to take their children, I saw a nice scenery which was all the parents were rushing in the school(they gave me the feeling as if they are the fans of super junior and were rushing to meet suju..haha)  
I planned to go pasar malam tonight but my plan was ruined by my sister as she's going somewhere else >.<
Maybe due to I'm too tired,I fell down in my room..I'm wondering: lay fang,when can you stop falling down like a kid =( ?? Luckily,nobody saw...so fish ><
I guess I have discovered the medicine to treat insomnia...Of course not barbiturrates..hehe..Its only valid for me...which is

A song entitled Rivers flow in you by Yiruma...Actually,I love this song since long time ago...But due to some reasons,I have stopped listening to this song...Now,this song is the only song which can help me to meet zau gong ..thank you very much,yiruma ^^

My second part-time job =)

After covered by spider web at home for one week,I start my second part-time job today...Well, the people there i mean the teachers there are nice =)...I got my uniform and some teaching materials today XD...

However,the students >.< still haven't make me faint yet...All of the kids seriously got their own patterns,I found that its a funny thing to discover... of course this statement is not for the upper standard students...^^ I think I'll become a fierce people after being there for a longer period because if I am too soft,I'll be bullied by the students...Anyway,I am kind of like this job...at least I can fill my time with some activities in which I wouldn't think of nonsense...Luckily today the school have not reopen yet,I got to go back home earlier...But its going to be very busy tomorrow i guess..
That's all to share about my job ^^  I figured out something very funny about the weather nowadays...

In the presence of dark clouds still can see the sunshine...seriously confusing @.@

Happy New Year =)

Hooray!! Its 2012,people XD! So long never update my blog here,miss me?? hehe...=P I just ended my first part time job with a period of around 3 weeks...elaborate more...I got some new friends there...all are with different appearance of course and altitude...anyhow,I learned a lot from them =) But there is a sad thing happened also,which is I met a man...perhaps with some mental disorder i guessed ...I guess that he is working around there also...He scolded me bad word and the middle finger ...haiz...so no manners...Fortunately,he met me =) who is so kind to forgive him...Because I seriously pity this kind of people...that's why I always wrote in my bm essays: Hal ini disebabkan kekurangan kasih sayang daripada keluarga. Ibu bapa yang sibuk bekerja sehingga mengabaikan anak mereka telah mengakibatkan anak mereka melakukan perkara yang NEGATIF!!! So sad,I think if you were me,you'll forgive him too...=(

the christmas decorations at leisure mall^^

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After the first job,I found a job nearby my house in which I'll start working on 3rd of January...So,there are some activities during my holidays..Such as played badminton with friends....Bowling with my ex-tutor+ friends..baked cake at home i hope it can be eaten^^ ...and so on...

unlike genting's one ...the light still on at night >.<

hehe...looks fine =)

I've never share any sad case here...but this time allow me to tell here...because this matter caused to have a sad day on the last day of 2011..I thought everything had over in 2011..Yet,it came back on yesterday...I got a big lesson from someone...I told myself this MUST be the last time..to let my  mood being interrupted by the last relationship!! Is a MUST in order to let go everything....For each and every fault that I did in 2010,I am here to apology... I'm sorry =( ...but please do not  interrupt my life anymore....

Lastly,lets listen to dj earthworm 2011 song....Make a comparison...I think 2009 one is the best...=)

2011-World Go Boom

2009-Blame it on the Pop