I know people always say everything is controlled in your hand. But in life, how many things can we really control in hand? Yes, you may do your very best for that particular thing but when something unexpected happened then you will still feel you're controlling it? Not to say we admit defeat to the fate. What we need to do is to think in another way. Sometimes you didn't realize, when you lost something actually you are gaining something on the meantime. So don't blame the God for why letting that hapened but thanks Him for bringing you back to the track you shall be in.
Just read my previous post today and I found out how naive I was in the past. And now I believe if I read this post few years later I will definitely feel the same. I guess this is what my ex meant last time. I know it is hard to practice but this is always the best way.
You don't know how many ten years you can have. Why should we stay upset when the days still pass no matter what? So, I hope I can be a pistachio from now on. Throw everything bad behind and step forward. Its not a bad thing to look behind but not to move behind.
I will never forget someone told me:"its a good thing to have something to regret about, then you'll be remembering the particular thing or person. Sometimes soneone are only meant to be remenbered. " :)
Been rushing for assignments these few weeks, seriously assignments are tiring. I remember Mr Wong always say no pain, no gain. Now I know this applies in everything in life. After the deep talk with my Ms. Inspiration, I really got a lesson and know what to do after all. Haha
This is why I love psychology. We can always psycho people with all the awesome quotes and theories yet when it comes to ourselves it will be a different story. That's why I think I everyone should have the Mr/Ms Inspiration in life. In the world of psychology, there is no such thing called self healing. Disclaimer: Based on my opinion XD
Thank everyone for being with me in my hard time. I'm so fortunate to have them whenever I fall. I should stop my grandmother's story already. I'm not drunk just too happy to have my david de gea shirt though not the official jersey. Been searching it all way long and now 得来全不费功夫.
Lesson of the day: Be ready as life is fulled of surprised, though it might be a good or bad one :)
Today is 26May2015 and I don't remember exactly how long I never update here. Nowadays, people use fb, instagram, tweeter and many more. For me, after all, blogging might be better for me except it is hard for me to post the photos from my phone. Haha.
Of course when I don't blog the Earth is still rotating and my life carries on. There are thousands of things happened, no matter it is good or bad, it is still a "past tense". Bought set of rainbow card from taobao hoping that the spirit that I have had from the psychology workshop could never end.
"There are no problems, only limited viewpoints."
Recently I kept picking up this card, trying to pull me out from frustrating for the problem that I;m facing recently. Actually, I also what my problems are. One thing to share hoping that someone will read this someday when the day really comes.
I don't know what have/had happened in the past few years and I'm still thinking the same that I choose not to know. When the trust is already not there, it is pointless to listen anymore. No matter what or how, he is still the one who I loved deeply and the memories that belong to us will be with me forever. Long time ago, I loved you more than anyone else in the world; now, the feeling kind of like family member, my big brother. Been pampering and taking good care of me in the past yet being treated by me selfishly. For the very last time, let me be selfish again in the end. If there is a time limit for the storage of your memories in somewhere which I don't know where, I hope it is not this century. You deserved to have a better life and I will move on by myself like what I am doing now.
Now I realised the consequences of being pampered. There is no benefits but making me weaker and weaker. Being hurt is ordinary in life but when the hurt is unnecessary then it is a stupid thing for me. No pressure no improvement by Mr Wong. No expectation no disappointment for me in love life. I'm actually quite tired of it. I can be smart in anything but not love. I wonder when I can be mature in love. Sometimes I wonder what love is even try to Google it. After all, I realised Google could not tells it, but the one who is right for us will tell us involuntary and you will know that he is the one. Yet, my sixth sense downgraded to fifth sense when I sensed the wrong thing that I am the right person for him too.
Whenever I'm tired of life, I will always choose to rest. I aware that I should stand up from where I fell. Perhaps just let me have a rest on the ground first, I will stand up by myself without needing anyone for lending a hand anymore. Trying to be tougher that the past when I see this "一个人如果不坚强，软弱给谁看？”
Time is the best medicine is commonly used and it is proved by so many people....3 years ago,someone told me this idiom when I lost him....I thought I could really let myself to walk out from the pain....After a year later, it didn't seem better ......I was still suffering....Then,another one who knows my past told me I will relieve the pain as time passes....Well, I believed I could do it that time as the tragedy had been so long ago....Nonetheless, the reality kept telling I am a failure.....I am totally KO by him....Arg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now,its already around 2 years.....In terms of thinking studying and whatever, I have grown up to be a more mature one.....except for the thing,I still keep my step in 2010....never move even a step.... Thats why I must be more optimistic ...I know I can't be like that forever .......No matter how well I keep the memories,it'll still a past...No matter how much I regret,the thing that had happened cannot be a variable anymore...So the only thing I can do now is to move forward for those who love me and I love =)
Tuesday, October 9, 2012
Everyday, when I flip over the newspaper,I can see the word "accident"....Recently,one of the serious accident was the cars that hit the tree and 4 lives was taken in the accident...I know nowadays there are many people who speed up in their journey with various reason especially the youth ....Nevertheless,we should always think about our love ones who are waiting for us to get to them (according to red fm) ...Accidents are always unexpected....So,we should not think that we can control it....before it happens to you,please slow down.... Anything happens to you not only affect you but the person around you ....
Is there any pair of ears to listen to me??? I hope someone can right be there for me even just once when I need....There are billion of words I wish to tell ....However,when I seriously look for.....there isn't anyone who really understand me can be right beside me,put a hand on my shoulder and said:"nevermind,I'll be here =) just tell me how u feel..." I think this has never happened ever since he was gone......
I know everyone would have their own thinking.....but can those ppl around me just try to control the temper???????????????????????I'm not a psychologist....I cant read mind,I'm not a worm in your stomach............I dunno wat you want when u dun say any word......................................................And pls if you had pissed off with something...................pls give me a reason!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Dun like a crazy ppl give me a shit face !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Like I'm paid to watch it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I dun even give a damn to see the idiot face!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you are human,I the same species too!!!!!!! you have feelings,why don't I have??????????????????????? I wish I could stay in harmony environment in the only comfortable place to me..........ended up with this kind of attitude towards me!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Who am I to you??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? I did't expect you to have a super duper understanding towards me.............but just a little bit of respect!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Well,just a little respect from you I also didn't get ......Honestly,the disappointment is maximum ... ...
