Ignore my feelings??

I know there is always separations happen around...But I really sick of it...Why should they left one by one once and once??? I thought our friendship had reached to the stage where it needless to say how sad am I about your leaving....But in the end,you left just like that and until now I don't even receive any notification that you have reached... I forgot,it is not  because of I don't concern but I'm too care about it...Nevertheless,she left......Similar to the way that she left 3 years ago...also similar the way that he left 2 years   ago without any message left,also the way that my grandma left 3years ago without any last word for me except for the disappointed sight towards me when I was about to go back from visiting her...My best friend,my lover,my dearest grandma....one by one......What can I say when everything is a fact now?? There's nothing else i could say except "nevermind".....I appreciate each and every one who love me and I love....However,why do i need to express my appreciation by acting I don't care at the end???

To:The One That Got Away

Hey...Perhaps I am still the same as u scolded me as "white eyes"...Because I wanted to do stupid things here...hehe...During this 2 years,there were so many things happen around me because the Earth did not stop  rotating even one people disappear in this world...Eventually,I 'd finished my SPM...Result was not as good as u expected,I'm sorry because I did not do my best >.< Now is doing form 6,I hope I can be more independent without you beside me,do you think I can?? Of course I will my best =) and I made new friends in my so called new school..well,I never thought of I would study in a girls'school,anyhow its a fact now o.O

Sometimes,someone will ask me:what you want to be in the future? Seriously,I'm not sure what is the reason whether is you left or I'd changed my mind or I did not change my mind....I really don't feel like continue my dream anymore....Nonetheless,I think no one can predict what will happen in the future...I have had the feeling of my life for this 2 years is so blank...just like a piece of white paper....Unlike the past, the 2years are so meaningful and colourful that can described by a piece of drawings coloured with different colours of crayon...It had been so long I never seen you and heard from you....Honestly,I miss you so much even though as a friend....My friend,my lovely and extraordinary one.....I'm having one and only one question which is:"how do you do recently?" Will you answer??

Everything is just a thought? NO!

I used to be a person who insist that everything I think is right. Nonetheless,I found I was wrong recently. I thought I would not fall in love with my ex- boy friend,in the end I loved him so much;I thought I could take the pain of letting him go,but in the end I was suffering;I thought as time passed by,I would reduce the sadness to minimum and forget everything about us,but in the end the memories are still so clear in my mind even though he had left for 2 years. I know I can't be like that throughout my whole life,I aware that I must stay stronger as no one need to depend on others to live,I know that I must insist my decision on forgetting him. Therefore,I've made a decision. I decided not to meet anyone that related to him. I hope anything or anyone that can link to him please stay away from me as possible as you can. I'm here to apologise if my decision hurt anyone but sincerely if u read this please do not come anymore. I really wish I could do it this time. This is the best decision for him,for her,for them and for me =') Don't worry about me anymore,although I can't guarantee that I'm always fine,I'll love myself no matter what =D

Thank you very much!!! =D

Don't know why i don't feel like update status in facebook recently...But I really don't know where to look for him to thank him...He was a person who helped me when I needed today...I never expect that in this society still have such kind-hearted person...I really feel so happy for it  =)  Nevertheless,I couldn't remember his face even he helped me so much today, perhaps I was too nervous until I couldn't focus on recognizing his face...arg!!! Even though we might not meet again in the future,I wish to thank him here.....I really hope such good person will live a good life and he'll always be a happy person XD Its hard to describe  how he helped ...anyway,what I could do is only by saying "thank you" =)
Thank you;Terima kasih,谢谢你;arigatou gozamas ;danke;grazie;sukriya;gamshahamida XP

nan geureul saranghaeyo

我以为我已经走出来了...怎知那天的意外告诉了我，原来我还爱他。。那些年我们的回忆还是像昨日的一样，一清二楚的浮现在我脑海中。。之前，当我告诉自己，告诉全世界，我已经放下他时，偶尔还是摆着一张忧愁的脸。。但，当我承认我还爱他时，纵使我是孤单一人，想起他时，竟然可以露出甜蜜的笑容。。我清楚地知道已经不可能回到过去，也明白他已经不在这世界了，但我还是觉得我不应该一直压抑我的情绪。。爱一个人，有错吗？我并没有要和他重新在一起的念头，只不过想单纯地爱着他，那就够了 :) 与他一起最美好的回忆，我已经拥有了。只不过是心中的感觉：我爱他^^

A brand new journey

Hey everyone，long time never blogging due to the works I have had recently is too abundant for me until I have insufficient time to update here ><
Well, I had started my form 6 and I started to understand the meaning of "tough". I'm studying in a girls' school and I had tried hard to used to the new environment there. Regarding my part time job,I had no choice to stop it and concentrate on my study. I felt so sad to leave them last night because they didn't aware of yesterday was my last day there. Good bye my dear students =') I love you guys!! They had given me sweet memories during these 4 months and I have learnt many lessons from the little kids ^^ 
I have another good news here. I had recovered from emotional hurt and had become an optimistic person XD Nonetheless,I'll still miss my grandmother and my lover who left me years ago. As I said, life is fulled with challenges. This time,my best friends who had the same decision as mine is going to change her mind and leave me. I felt upset at the first place. Nevertheless,I accepted this challenge and I'll still fight hard even I'll be alone =) I did mentioned before that I will not oppose the fate anymore,but I'll take the challenge and face it with my maximum courage ;)

This is me!!

After all,everything seems to be settled down,including my emotion. It is undeniable that the case had affected my emotion deeply,but what was wrong for me to choose something i prefer?? It happened already two years ago and I think it is useless to blame any side as  nobody else is blaming the fault,except me. Yes!! Someone has gone for 2 years and my relationship has ended since two years ago. In this two years time,what i did were blaming myself,lying to myself that I could let it go but I was not indeed.
Now,I am sincerely to forgive everyone included myself and both of my best friends in another world =)
To them: Please have the same thinking as mine because you guys would feel better and happier. Everything had over and I'm continue-ing my life with my original spirit of fighting. I love you guys!!!
I believe my life will still face a lots of odds in my journey as life should be filled with challenges to make it more meaningful and colourful XD Therefore,I am sure that I still can smile sweetly without him. :) because this is me!!!